…I graduated college! I ain’t been tumblin’ in a while, but I finally officially finished undergrad on Sunday. It was neat (but mostly sweaty), but now I’m just… here. I have a place to live because both Dad and Boomer are super nice and let me stay with them, but I feel weird not having my own place, and not knowing when I’ll really have one again. I have three degrees but no job. I have a new twelve string guitar but no good ideas for music (at least, that I can translate from head to actual music). I have a ton of anxious, frustrated energy, but no real way to get it out. However, Zanois does have a bunch of good shows lined up, such as Roller Derby this Saturday and a Ramones Tribute Show on Sunday with our buddy Tristan. So that’s cool.. oh, and I started a Tamagotchi up again.


It’s A Gen2!!!
Justice McWithTheBumpyHeads

…because I write to milk and butter and stuff. But yeah, lots of things since last thing.

First of all, commercial: Zanois has two shows this coming weekend in Manchester, where we’ll be releasing our entire discography on dope-ass lightscribed CDs (I have no picture of this). But yeah, you should come if you’re in the area, because they’ll be a butt ton of fun.

Secondably, happened-things: Last Thursday, I had a job interview and a final back to back! I think they both went pretty well. The final was a final, so not much to talk about there, but the job interview was cool. First of all, the company has this AMAZING lobby that looks like a rainforest, kinda like this:

 

So that was awesome. I met with three people who were all very nice, and definitely gave me the impression it would be a nice place to work; everyone seemed smart and interested in science, but they weren’t really uptight or condescending or competitive sounding. One odd thing was that the position was not a lab position, but rather a bioinformatics thing… I’m not opposed to that, it’s just not what I was expecting…. but I’m excited to hear back from them.

Since I last posted something substantial, MCA and Maurice Sendak passed away. This makes me really sad, because I haven’t really listened/looked at either of their work much for quite awhile, but they were both things I grew up on, so the idea of living in a world where these people are not creating things or being alive anymore is just a very sad idea…

On a positive note: I’m done with school work! I turned in my last paper and had my last final Tuesday, which was really exciting, but (shocker) kinda sad and strange… Anyways, since I didn’t have any work to do, I actually hung out with people tonight! It was really nice; we played Dominion and nerded it up some. I really wish I wasn’t so afraid of interacting with humans/better at it, because I would have liked to have had more pleasant things like that while I was at a place just full of people my age. Oh well… I’m just glad I got to do the ones I did I guess.


But Yeah, I’m Sleepy…
Justice  McSoI’mOut

P.S.- I entitulated this post the way I did because I realize it’s a bit silly to have a public online diary, which is essentially what this has become… however, it makes me feel better being able to put all the thoughts down, and if anyone else gets anything out of it, awesome! But yeah, I’m hoping to do more postable things soon to make this more interesting…

ryanlikestheinternet:

This song is feelings. This song is so many feelings. in such a good way. Ari the Archetypes.

This is a pretty dense song, feeling-wise. Without stepping on Zane’s or anyone else’s interpretation of what the song is about, the “Ari” part of the name comes from two places (at least, last I heard): Arae, which are female spirits in Greek mythology (sometimes referred to as curses), and Aries, the ram/astrological sign associated with spring and- as I see it- all the explosive, hormonal energy and feelings associated with springtime. I really like Zane’s use of “She” and “her” in this song as more of a concept than an individual person. Here’s another link in case this one don’t work:

http://zanois.bandcamp.com/track/ari-the-archetypes 


Check It Out!!!
Justice McListenToZanoisSoIDon’tHaveToWritePapersOrGetARealJob 

That’s a really cool idea, bird that’s actually a cat now! That would make a dope-ass video too probably (although you’d need something resembling a “budget” of money I’d imagine…), but yeah, I like this. Once we get out of finals season, I’m gonna write a song about this.


More People Should Send Me Things!!!
Justice McIdeaThings? 

There there, Anon that is almost definitely Allison or Emily…. I can’t be in the club forever. Life is about change and turnover- otherwise you just have stuff sitting there, which is dead stuff (see… Biology, I guess?). As much as I love PRnR (Punk Rock n’ Roll club, for those not in the know), I have to go to other things and get out of the way, so that you young folks can make the club even better than I ever could have. But don’t worry, I promise I’ll come back to visit and even play a docter stupid at least once or twice next year.


Chin Up, Cowanon.
Justice McThere’sNoCryingInBaseball 

P.S.- I went that whole thing without quoting The Outsiders. I’m very proud of myself for this.

…But I’ll do that tomorrow. Tonight I feel… not. In the meantime, does anyone want to read “The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter” out loud to me? You know, like… for a bedtime story?


 

The Humor.
Justice McAin’tThere? 

Cool. So, check this out-

I’m graduating in three weeks. However, I only have but one class, one discussion group, one homework, one paper, and two finals before that happens. All of which is happening in the next week plus a day! Also in that time, I have a job interview and a gig! There’s a lot of stuff making me feel so excited that it’s basically anxiety, just…. in a good way. Except that it kinda makes me sick out excited I am, but whatever.

So, first thing is school- I will be done in less than a month, and I’m not going back for at least a year (if ever). This is the first time in my life that this is the case, which means that I’ll have to get a full-time job in order to sustain myself. It also means I’ll need to find a place to live, which also means that Boomer and I will actually be living together on our own; even though we’ve been together for over 5 years, this is still a pretty weird concept to me. Not because I don’t want it to happen- I totally do… It’s just one of those big steps that I think is meant to make you nervous, because it’s, you know, big. So there’s that.

But, before I get a place to live, I need a job to work, to get money for that place. I finally managed to get an interview for myself this Thursday, which of course is the same day as my final for one of my classes. I got this interview by being persistent- not annoying, just politely checking back in every now and then and restating my interest. Let that be a lesson, kids: if you want something, keep trying for it*…. sure, it might not work out, but a lot of times all you need is a little extra effort.

 Also, on the subject of effort and caring about things: Zanois news! I’ve been worried about the fate of the band for a little while now, as we didn’t really know where Zane would be or what he’d be doing next year up until yesterday. But, he decided to take a year off from school, which means that we’ll be going at this band thing even harder than before; we have three gigs coming up in the next couple weeks in Methuen, Manchester, and also Manchester. We have a few other things set up or being set up for the summer. We have a new Lightscribe burner coming, and we’re rereleasing our entire discography all prettied up and lightscribed. We’ve even started working on new songs again! I won’t give away a lot, but the one we’re working on right now has multiple time and key changes, new themes, crazy tapping riffs, and should be over ten minutes long. So yeah, I’m super excited about everything in my life right now, and I’m really ready for everything to kick as much ass as it could. I couldn’t find a Youtube video for it, but I’d recommend everyone listen to “The Way Of The Pilgrim” by Mahavishnu Orchestra right now (maybe reread this while you do it?).


I Don’t Know!!!
Justice McButI’mSoExcitedI’mShaking

*Notable Exception: People and their… delicate parts. No means no when it comes to that- if you care about someone and you want to “court” them, I think persistence is a good thing, but don’t force anybody to do anything against their will. That’s a bad thing.

P.S.- Sorry for the awkward change in tone… here’s a peppy Zanois song to make up for it:

 

Reblogs are only a worthwhile thing when they are for cats and shameless self promotion.

Come See Zanois Next Saturday At Paul’s Pub!!!
Justice McBuyBuyBuy 

Wait, who is this? I don’t know anyone who is named Anonymous, but I’m fairly certain I know you. First of all, this looks/sounds really familiar for some reason…. Secondably, I’m trying to remember people who know about my fever issue*, and I can’t think of who knows right now. Thirdly, I like it! I will definitely add it to “the list”, which right now is like, two things by me and then this, but still…


Thanks!!!
Justice McSeeBelow

*Fever Issue: I have some specific fever symptoms that happen to me that- excluding you, anon- I have yet to hear of other people besides Michel Gondry. I don’t think I’ve mentioned them on here, but I could wrong on that one. Anyways, if I close my eyes when I get a fever (or sometimes when I’m just anxious or tired or something), I start to feel my hands and head and other body parts changing size: for instance, I could feel my hands get super giant and my head shrink, or vice versa. Or my legs would begin to stretch out towards infinity. Yeah… also, I see and hear thousands of gears… gearing.

P.P.S.- Wait, this may be something that I wrote to someone awhile ago, which would be why it looks familiar…. if that’s the case, good job saving this…? If not, thanks! Also thanks even if you did save it I guess. Good job either way, Mable. That also may explain the “also” in the sentence about the above blurb, as also is a confusing word that I sometimes trick myself with…

By Me. I’ve been out of the swing of writing that I was just starting to get into in February for a couple months now, and I’m worrying that I’ve lost my ability to write stuff. I’ve been kinda “blocked” on the Justice Eats Trees “My Life From March 2011 to Nowish” concept album, and that’s been my excuse; I’ve been trying to make that, but it’s just not coming out right, so why make anything?
Instead, what I think I should be working on is just writing for the sake of writing. I have a few ideas that are just like, one-off things that I want to use as a guiding principle for writing songs, and since I feel sick and Boomer is asleep, I’ll start on one now. However, maybe I want to solicit “prompts” much like a writer of regular words would… that might be fun, right?


Oh, And I Have A Job Interview Next Week!!!
Justice McTwo30RocksAgoEndQuote